i miss you.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

MOANING SUNSHINE!!! :0):0):0)
Woke up super early today, even earlier than when i need to go to school. slept super early last night too. Went to market for breakfast with mum and grandma. My mum and ah ma was so shock to see me at home on a sat night. No dblO last night, was considering to go st james wif them instead but decide to give it a miss. I wonder how was St james last night, must be damn packed. Anyway, i guess i like it this way, the healthy lifestyle. :) Hope i could find the information i need for my project later. This will be the first time i step into the national library at bras basah.
So looking forward to wildwildwet next week. :):)

LING @ 8:51 PM

Thursday, May 29, 2008

These are all my random thoughts.
1. This week was a slightly different one, less drinking and less nightlife. But i realised my body was better now, i understand my school work better too. I had 2 tests this week so i spent most of my time at home and did some self-study. I slept more too and my back does not hurt so much already.
2. I had a new friend. A friend that kinda make me understand certain facts i don't want and refused to face. I hope this friend to always stay happy, bad things seems rolling to this fren non-stop. But i wont forget you still own me 2 happy meals ok!
3. I bought nail polish at 02skin. Their nail polish was fast drying and good. Good recommendation, friend! :):)
4. I feel like going to so many places and do so much things suddenly. Let's see what's on the list.
-WWW (wildwildwet)/ jurong swimming complex :):)
-Ice skating :):)
-Cycling at East Coast Park in the night :):)
-Steamboat with my bitches (hahas, it's been a long time since we did that.) :):):)
-Shop till i drop :):):
-Gathering with the whole family ( i have around 80+/- relatives) ::)::)::)::)
-Sentosa / Batam Island trip (to places that have no worries, just myself and peace) ::)::)::)::
-Sit by the beach, have a beer and have my 2 bfs Ben&Jerry accompanying me. ::)::)::)
-Go to Bangkok/Hong Kong :):):):)
-Back to my workaholic life (it's been a long time since i work non-stop w/o off days.) :):):)
5. What happens in Vegas is a wonderful show. I always have this weird thought, i should watch certain shows with certain people that knows how to appreciate the show. Made of Honor is nice too but what happens in Vegas is still NumberOne. Next to watch is Narnia, Indiana Jones and Sex and the city.
***That lingering pain on my heart that keeps coming back to me***

LING @ 10:13 AM

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

the lingering pain on her heart that keeps haunting her once in a while

LING @ 10:54 PM

Monday, May 26, 2008

ME @ OO last saturday night

My two fav Pigs(Pics =P)

Us :):)

It was a rather messy night for me, i guess. Hope this week will be a better one. I still wanna find my 2 boyfriend, ben & jerry. The brownies flavour please.

LING @ 8:37 AM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

3.04am. Just reached home after work @ Sassy and supper. Someone said the word "Nostalgia" to me just now. On our way to supper, the journey passed by places that make me had "that" feeling. Henderson road, commonwealth west, tea garden, farrer road, lorni road. Those roads that i used to take almost everyday. Just when emotions and life seems to turn normal, when spending everyday alone does not matter, the reality show that the truth wasnt like what i thought it was. Flashbacks and traces of him or us didnt let me go.
She miss him.
She was wrong thinking that she was fine.
Even getting near to those places spoil her night.
The strong front was getting fragile.
Those thoughts came chasing after her again.

LING @ 12:04 PM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

THE SUPER CUTE HANDPHONE';S STRAP & KEYCHAINS!~

LING @ 8:45 AM

1) STEAMBOAT WITH XIAOQI, PEPPER & BOBO

MY 2 FAVOURITES : FISH & PRAWNS

DOES THIS LOOKS LIKE HONEYDEW INSTEAD OF FISH?

2) WEETENG'S BIRTHDAY

THE FOOD WT'S MUM COOK FOR US

WT & FAMILY

SISTAS:):)

3) TCSS
Me & Cherrie, Me & Ken

Me & Gwen

4)Wedding dinner

LING @ 7:34 AM

IT'S GRUMBLE TIME!!~ :):)
1. Stingy people - hey please, stingy dont have to show it to the whole world, hide in the wardrobe please.
2. People who like to boost - If you dont even own Mount Ophir, dont go around telling ppl you own Mount Fuji.
3. Irresponsible people - I know you are not oblige to be responsible to anyone, but can you please at least be responsible to yourself. Take pride in the things you need to do, your job, your friends and the trust people have in you.
4.Indecisive people - I understand that some of us are just abit more indecisive than the others, but maybe you can just learn to decide on some of the things. Don't expect me to make all the decisions! stress ya?!?!
5. People who dont appreciate me - I take everyone of you as my friend sincerely, but dont treat me as a fool. I can be nice, but i can bite till you ROT. Actually, it's really disappointing for those people to not appreciate you, heartbreaking.
6. People who abuse my trust - It makes or breaks everything. A person will never be a fool twice, once is enough.
7. People who bomb my phone - I hate it
8. People who put on that mask - Keeping quiet doesnt means im stupid. At the time i refuse to confront you or say anything, it simply means no need for explanations. Not gonna talk to you means not gonna talk to you.
9. Ungrateful people - It simply sucks to be you.
10. LIARS - i hate these people the most.

I guess im just too tired. Maybe a non-stop sleep for three days would help. Pershaps, things will turn better after the sleep :):):):):):):):):0:0:0:0:0

LING @ 7:08 AM

Monday, May 19, 2008

i want to hav 2 boyfriend. One named ben, the other named jerry. i wanna eat them everyday with different flavours.

LING @ 11:43 AM

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
I NEED MORE HAPPINESS TO CHASE MY WHOLE LOAD OF UNHAPPINESS AWAY PLEASE
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

LING @ 4:12 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

MY BACK HURTS!!!
Yesterday was the usual DblO's night we have during every saturday. For god knows what reasons, my back hurts like hell. Before we went in to DblO, we went for the stupid bak ruk teh @MS. The trotter they served compared to the one in Ang Mo Kio Ave 1 was heaven and hell. So damn fat and oily. Walking back to DblO, gwen went off. Everyone was split, Zing went to eat, jelly went to O bar with Cup-F. I'm standing by the table looking at Qijie and Andy like a dead boring girl. Actually im damn tired and im bothered by my back, hurting.
But after 1+2am, RNB started. I think i dance like at least 1 hour+ at the pordium. After everything, i knew for sure the next day i need to lie in bed for dunno how many hours to rest my back. When i woke, it's already dinner time. I've been lying in bed for more than 12 hours. damn my back. :(

LING @ 3:09 AM

Saturday, May 10, 2008

One thing i learnt and forced to agree is:
Never try to or even think that you can change a person, be'cos you will only fall badly.

LING @ 3:01 AM

DRINK DRANK DRUNK~~
Think i've said a loads of rubbish again last night. Sorry to all. Spend almost the whole week at boat quay, even on off day. Yesterday was really tiring, not enough sleep, rush to work, work done went lunar. Madness! I guess i heard what jelly say dunno is on the cab or at boat quay. "She thinks you are too harsh or she think your words are too harsh". Something like that, that's the only sentence i remembered.
To you: Im sorry if im too harsh to you. Really sorry, i dont mean it.

LING @ 12:10 AM

Friday, May 9, 2008

SASSY BAR

SASSY SASSY SASSY SASSY SASSY
damn! gotta work again today! >.<

LING @ 2:21 AM

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Why do human beings dream when they are sleeping? What is a dream actually? How do you differentiate a bad dream and a nightmare?
I had a dream just now. Was it a nightmare or bad dre4m? hmm. I think i've always been dreaming about something similiar for quite some time. The dream is something like someone kept chasing behind me, no matter where and how fast i ran, I never seems to be able to get away. All i could do is run and scream, the feeling is freaking helpless and full of fear. And when you woke, your heart feel damn heavy and sour, somehow there's still abit of fear.
o.o
what happen actually?

LING @ 10:31 PM

6:20 am, i'm posting a post at this ungodly hour. Actually i just reach home about 5:48 or 5:49. Was at work den went to lunar den rumours. All that wasn't important! Regarding this post i've got to say!

I'm not gonna be that stupid anymore! once is enough! I've loved enough, give in enough, put in as much effort as i can and now no more! I swear! definitely no! no more guys gonna be tht lucky anymore! I'm gonna say fcuk off and die! burn yourself please!

i'm tired after so much drinks. good night ppls :) honey dreams everyone!

The saying goes:
" Nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai" but actually in this 21st century,
The saying goes like this:
"Nu ren bu huai, nan ren bu ai."
It's actually the opposite! OMG, what's has the world became??!?!?!?

LING @ 3:20 PM

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Can i have Ben&Jerry please?
I love FLINTSTONES!:)

LING @ 12:23 PM

Finally one happy post after so long :) It's peihua aka ahbao's birthday.

The food we had at Serangoon Garden's CafeCartel :)

After dinner, we went to liquid kitchen for some drinks and catch back sessions :)

JieMeis:):) hahas

What we used to do during sec sch days was the birthday girl will have nutrients of the cake on her face. Pushing her head to smash the cake seems fun, miss those days. :( lols. Memories. Hate to grow up.

LOVES :):)

Shock of the night!!!!! LOL >.<

Okie, now's time for some thoughts. Hmm, although not everyone of the click is present for PH's birthday, but still feel that it's really happy to see that at least everyone tried to make the effort to gather and celebrate for her. It's been two years since we separated ways after 5 years in Peirce sec. Really hate to grow up, miss those days in Peirce, just enjoy everyday and get spoon fed by those wonderful teachers. I just wanna dream and nua everyday, the world and reality is too much for me to take. Well, hope things remain this way, never abandon me, love you all jiemeis. :):) This might sounds abit silly or crazy, but it's really not easy to always be in contact with friends that you hardly see. All in different environment, some working, some studying, some slacking. I guess that's just something between good friends, always just a call or text away. :):)

LING @ 8:33 AM

Sunday, May 4, 2008

SHE HATE FLU!!!
For dunno what reasons, it came looking for her again. She felt as if her nose were dropping anytime soon. Is she gonna fall apart soon? She doesn't know what she is doing everyday and it getting worse, it seems like she sinking to a bottomless pit. Everything she do seems meaningless, just like a wandering soul. She is another person now, no longer the old, strong her and she hates it. She knows that problems and stress are inevitable but can they stop finding her for a moment, just let her rest for a while can?
Stress 1.
Money - just find a job, earn it and take back from those who borrowed.
Stress 2.
Mr A, B, C - just off the phone and they cant do anything.
Stress 3.
Family - just agree with them, dont argue, hide in the room or go out of the house and things will be fine.
Stress 4.
Tears - just let time do the job
Stress 5.
Friends - this should be the most "brain juice consuming problem". The problem arises when words gets too difficult to be spoken, when meeting each others becomes a form of stress, when things each other do starts to annoy each other. Maybe they doesnt know, when she sound too harsh or angry, it's just her temper. She doesnt mean to hurt anyone or bear any grudges. She should just shut up, f-off and end everyone's misery? She knows there's a problem but what's the problem? Is everything just my fault? Is my securities causing everyone to hate me? Is my presence causing unhappiness to everyone? If yes, please let me know. I promise, i will just SCRAM.

LING @ 1:52 AM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Tears rolled down her face again.
She was too stressed.
Those calls n messages.
Till the phone have no more bat and shut off.
Actually, why dont they understand she just need peace and time?
Sighz.

LING @ 12:32 AM